My new blog!

I wanted to start a new blog to track my journey through grief. I want to get back to or find that strong confident person that I know I can be or once was in the passed. I look at my self now and I am scared and don't know how to continue through life. I do know that I don't want to continue the way I am going now. On this blog I want to be honest with myself. I am doing this for myself. My posts will be real they will be my true feelings. There are so many times that I have sugar coated how I really feel and I need somewhere to go to get it out! In my journey I have lost myself. I don't want to love and am scared to be loved, therefore I have let myself become overweight. But in doing this I have increased my risk of so many diseases.(but have also felt that maybe thats my quickest way out) I have blamed my weight on my thyroid for so many years but now is the time to stop! I am stopping today!Nobody can change me but me!